Angela

Change

Tue, 09 Dec 2003 01:52:33 GMT

Because something never change... and something do.

This quote is so true on so many levels.. But it seems like the things that you never want to change, are the ones that do.. and the ones that never change, are the things that would be so much better if they would. Or maybe, it wouldn't be better, maybe you just think it'd be better. But then it does change and you look back, and everything is screwed up and you think that is one of the ones that you wished hadn't changed. I've realized, that things like me being horrible at religion... has not changed, will never change. And me sucking at everything has never changed either... but maybe it will. I can only hope. But things that you wish would never change, change so quickly, you don't have time to look at them and be thankful for what you have. The things that never change though, are the things that you hate so much, and you get sick of them and wish they would. Maybe change is for the better... but it's harder than hell x.x

TV

Sun, 30 Nov 2003 00:37:24 GMT

Sometimes... I wish more than anything in the world my life would just be like a tv show. I mean, sure, bad things happen in tv shows, and they don't have it all easy all the time... But you always know one thing.. You know that everything will always turn out right in the end. And the villain, or the person who messed everything up in the first place... always gets what they should get, the audience wouldn't have it any other way. Life just seems like nothing will ever be ok again, and it's not fair how someone hurts you so bad, and you feel like you did everything right, but the person that hurt you in the first place... just gets it better, and they're happy, even know they left someone hurting, but sure, they don't think about it, what would the fun be in that? I mean, the person stupid or shallow enough in the first place to hurt anyone like that... wouldn't be smart enough, or care about how the other person felt, or how, they messed everything up. Things just don't work out that way.

Blank

Sat, 29 Nov 2003 20:46:48 GMT

It's funny... Whenever I'm not at a computer or don't have a notebook in my hands, I think of all this stuff that I could write down.. but I never do, because by the time I get a computer in front of me I've forgotten what it was that was so important to write down in the first place.. There's always so much going on in my head, but then when I sit down to type something out, my mind is blank. I hope that will change, or else having an online journal would be completely pointless.. because all I'd ever be writing about would be how I can't remember any thing that I was going to type out..